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Harry Potter ([personal profile] coreofaphoenix) wrote in [community profile] hogwartsexpressed2020-03-20 07:29 pm

Nightmares & Revelations (CLOSED - for Hermione & Draco)

A lot had changed since the end of the war. Harry hadn't gone back to Ginny as so many had assumed and they were both okay with that. More than okay, if he was honest. The only one who hadn't taken it so well... okay, the only two people who hadn't taken it so well were Molly and Ron. To them, they were supposed to be this giant happy Weasley family and well, Hermione and he had other aspirations.

After those months in the tent, after Ron had left them, Hermione and he had discussed their hopes, their dreams, their fears and even shared each other's beds. After the war, they hadn't let themselves or each other simply settle for the Ministry or to just get married and start having a family. They wanted and needed something bigger, where they could do more to the benefit of their society.

He had of course told Ron that nothing happened and to this day, he wasn't sure why he had insisted that nothing happened - maybe to make everyone else happy? But after it was all said and done, he knew how pointless that had been. Not only had their society changed but they had changed.

Hogwarts would always be his first home but neither of them felt ready to return to the scene of the war. Perhaps that was putting it nicely. They were done with the manipulations from Dumbledore and knew Hogwarts would only bring up bad thoughts and memories for the both of them. Instead, they had been approached by the International Confederation of Wizards to join their next recruiting class. It would be hard work, they were told, but they were used to that. After Hermione found her parents and returned their memories, they accepted the position and headed to Rome, much to Ron's disappointment and dismay.

They'd went in on a three bedroom flat of a wizarding world apartment complex, it wasn't as if Harry was hurting for money after the will reading of Sirius and his parents (whose had been buried intentionally by Dumbledore) and taking up his lordship. They had assumed they would use the other room for an office but when they met their fellow recruits, they realized there was likely another reason for it. They hadn't been the only ones from Britain to be approached by the ICW, imagine their surprise when Draco Malfoy had shown up that first day. Not only that, but in their training exercises, the three of them had been paired up a number of times and surprisingly (and unsurprisingly) enough... they worked really well together. It didn't take Hermione and him long to approach Draco about moving into the third bedroom.

The more surprising part was that he'd accepted.

It had been just over five months since Draco had moved in with them and he could honestly say they were starting to make headway.

It was just Harry's luck that the night Hermione was out of town working on assignment was the night he had his first nightmare since before they came to Rome. It was as it always was - Sirius' death, Voldemort's annoying monstrous face and Dumbledore's ever present manipulations - losing everything he loved and cared for. What he didn't know was that he was screaming, tossing and turning in his bed and his magic getting a little bit (a lot) out of control. Normally, Hermione was home and would be alerted the moment his magic got loose or that he was having a nightmare. But tonight, he was on his own. Or he might've been had the silencing spells on his room not broken on the onslaught of his magic, alerting Draco to the situation at hand.
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[personal profile] circumpolar 2020-04-12 08:01 pm (UTC)(link)
Going from being on the run, to being able to settle back into their home had been mindblowing for Draco. He had gratefully, and without many questions, accepted the appointment from the ICW. He'd only had one question.

Would they pardon and forgive Narcissa.

When they had, he had said good bye to her after warding their ancestral home against his father in case he was freed, and went to training.

Now he's here. Living in a home with Harry Potter and Hermione Granger, and he's respected. By his coworkers. By the ministry. Sure some look at him sideways, waiting for him to turn, but he knows he won't ever turn back to the Death Eaters that remain, and is rather proud to have been deemed a traitor by those that had stood by his father.

He nods though when Harry talks about how hard it can be. "I can understand that. I dream a lot that I'm back on the Tower, or still running with my mother. Just know you're not in this alone. Kind of twice over now."

No matter what happens, he's there for Harry. For them both.

Moving to the window, he lets the owl out and closes the window behind it. He's still not always certain about those that might come for him, that they still haven't found.
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[personal profile] circumpolar 2020-04-17 12:27 am (UTC)(link)
"Even those that were involved in it in many ways. Those that might not have worn the mask of a death eater, but you and I both know their families were involved. The only ones that didn't return to their lives either fought at that school or were are now in prison."

He holds so much disdain for those that pretended it never happened and did nothing to fight Voldemort and just went back to his life. He'd had no choice in it but, in the end, he'd been made to be part of it. He couldn't just go back to his life. Even if he had wanted to, he couldn't.

"So you can suffer them alone? Is that the plan?"
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[personal profile] circumpolar 2020-04-19 12:20 am (UTC)(link)
It's the one advantage of them being in a home together. They all suffer in varying ways from the trauma of the war. They know that and share it. They don't look at one another and expect them to just be over it. So many wanted to leave it in the past, and the three of them know it won't ever absolutely be over. Not for them. For things like this. Like the nightmares.

"I didn't sign up for being a child soldier in a war either, but that doesn't change I was. If you couldn't control them, and it was every night? I would still be here, Potter. Absolutely."
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[personal profile] circumpolar 2020-04-23 07:08 pm (UTC)(link)
"No, it's not optional," Draco argues. "You are my friend, Potter, and I'm no abandoning you to deal with those yourself. How could I move out of here and pretend like I didn't know that was going on here?"

And that for him is a huge part of it. He couldn't know what he does now and just walk away. It wouldn't help either of them.

"I mean it. I'm here to be there with you, to help if I can."
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[personal profile] circumpolar 2020-04-27 10:37 pm (UTC)(link)
"Wow, so shocked,' he taunts with a smirk, shifting to move in closer, standing toe to toe with Harry. "Listen to me, Potter. We were enemies because of others, not ourselves. We were pawns, and now we know that. We can see the world clearly, and it means fixing the past and forging on, okay?"

Because for him, that is their past and this is their life.
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[personal profile] circumpolar 2020-05-02 11:14 pm (UTC)(link)
"You would have ended up a pawn of the Dark Lord," he says, not doubting that in the least. "My father would have treated you like a second son, and then just handed you to him on a silver platter," he says, shoulders tightening then, his chin lifting. "You know, just like he did me."

And he believes that after what his father did to him, let them do to him, they would both be dead now.

Stepping in, sliding his hand over Harry's chest as he stares into his eyes. "And you think this is going to make me move and get them?" Smiling though as he rests his brow against Harry's. "I'm glad you didn't shake my hand then. I really am."
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[personal profile] circumpolar 2020-05-07 07:57 pm (UTC)(link)
"He would have," Draco says, though Harry's words take him back, making him pause a moment. It's not that he agrees with him but that no one has worried about it. They dismiss him as a dilettante, and Draco thinks that's intentional, something he's done to ensure that no one looks at Lucius too closely. "I can't argue with you, but he's not the only one either."

It is so odd, in the best possible ways. He's not worrying, and he doesn't feel he has to watch his back all the time. Not in this flat. Not with them.

Sliding his hands along Harry's waist, just resting there and enjoying the intimacy. It's something that he's never had, not really with anyone, so this feels better than it should.

"I'm glad for that as well. Even if I know I can't kiss you like I want. Not and face Hermione's wraith. Sorry, not doing that.
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[personal profile] circumpolar 2020-05-14 02:41 am (UTC)(link)
He likes how Harry says that. We will have all we need. He loves hearing that from him, and is glad for that assurance that they would manage to take care of things. He's worried about it for himself alone, but he's realizing more and more that he's not in anything alone. Not anymore.

"We'll take care of them. All of them," he says, knowing he isn't the only one that wants to make that their first priority after all they've been through.

"And just what do you think we'll be doing then? Hmmm?"
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[personal profile] circumpolar 2020-05-21 05:21 am (UTC)(link)
Despite being glad that he escaped it all, he does like the hunting down of the old members of the Death Eaters and bringing them in or ending them. Whichever way it needs to go. He's okay with it either way.

Smiling at that promise, wrapping an arm around Harry's shoulders, pulling him in close and hugging him. Glad to be able to hold him, not sure he has a way to tell him how he feels about him saying that, agreeing with it, willing to help him with it.

"So I don't kiss her when she walks in? Or strut around naked? Okay, got it," he says in a soft voice, trying to be funny as he's still trying not to snuffle about it because it's all so hard and would be horrible if he was doing this alone.
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[personal profile] circumpolar 2020-05-25 07:34 pm (UTC)(link)
There had always been a crush, especially on Harry. The boy who lived with his beautiful eyes and infuriating demeanor. Pansy had called him on it more than once. The others learned to stop mentioning. He can't help but laugh softly.

"I look amazing naked, thank you,' he says, though he pauses before adding. "Back in school, Pansy gave me shite about you and the crush I had. When I moved in here, she asked if I was pursuing that. When I mentioned Hermione lives here as well, she noted that threesomes are eautiful. I laughed at her and told her she was an idiot."

And she might be an idiot, but she hadn't been wrong about so many things apparently.
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[personal profile] circumpolar 2020-05-29 11:36 pm (UTC)(link)
"Your crush?" He asks it wide eyed, positively wicked. "So when you were stalking me it wasn't all professional, as it were?"

Though that reminds him.

"That day, on the Express," he says, ducking his head and looking away before dragging his gaze back to Harry. "I did that for your own good. I knew you were there, and realizing that you might follow us and be caught... I could have done it gentler," he admits, reaching up and tenderly stroking his cheek. "I'm sorry.

"And she does. She wants me happy. Pansy and I, we've recovered a lot from those days and worked to make our lives what we wanted, not what our parents wanted."
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[personal profile] circumpolar 2020-06-03 10:11 pm (UTC)(link)
"I don't think us living together now is going to do anything to make them believe back then that you weren't just madly in lust with me, Potter," he teases, smirking though as he leans into that touch.

Leaning into it, eyes closing and enjoying the sensation of Harry's touch. Even as he smiles at that, though it's a tight, sad smile. "Honestly, no. I haven't known that. You might forgive me for that one event, but the world, our world? Hasn't forgiven me and it will likely never happen for may of them. All I can do is fight what I did with what I'm doing now," he says, believing that is all he can do.

"You should. She does beautiful, magical work. She keeps trying to get me in the chair to cover up the mark," he admits, even now wearing a long sleeve sleep shirt so that it isn't shown. "She thinks she can basically reverse the magic of it but I would be her experiment so she's perfecting the magic."
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[personal profile] circumpolar 2020-06-07 04:47 am (UTC)(link)
"I'm feeling entirely entrapped this minute. Is this why you worked to get me out here in my nightclothes? Wicked man," he says with a laugh, finding such comfort in the peace between them in that moment. It's easy to have these talks, to share in this moment and not have it be about the past, even as they're talking about the past.

"I'll only go back for friends, for Pansy and to see my Mum. I have no interest in returning there. I would rather live in the states," he says, making a face. "Not that I'm rushing off for their either."

He's quiet though, considering that and what he's thought about getting. He looks away, actually blushing though it's only the slightest tinge of flush to his cheeks. "It's dumb. I mean, it's not even original. I've thought about getting a dragon," he admits.

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