"I've never been." Remus sounds abashed. "As Gryffindor prefect, I don't have business there, and… socially… it's just the four of us." …Well, it isn't for two of them, but…
…and really, Lily made five. Or their own separate two. But not really—he can't afford to think that way.
—It's somehow kind of easier not to, sitting here talking to Tonks.
Actually, that's not right. He's not not-thinking of it. It's easier to think of Lily, but in an easier way. More comfortable, much simpler. Rather than work to push it out of mind entirely, until a moment's carelessness flooded his brain with doomed, fatal longing. Here, suddenly, thinking of sitting on the window seat with Lily, laughing over marking, is right in the same category as sitting in front of the fire with the other Ms; all just as vital, precious, immutable, but solid. Complete. No need for yearning of any 'missing' aspect.
…because… instead… here… dancing across the table from him in a pair of sparkling eyes…
"It sounds really nice," said Remus, stupidly but earnestly. Wondering for the first time if getting into Gryffindor wasn't the only way his life could have been saved that day. "…You ever read muggle books, as well as liking their music? I've heard the Hufflepuff commonroom compared to something in… some of it."
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…and really, Lily made five. Or their own separate two. But not really—he can't afford to think that way.
—It's somehow kind of easier not to, sitting here talking to Tonks.
Actually, that's not right. He's not not-thinking of it. It's easier to think of Lily, but in an easier way. More comfortable, much simpler. Rather than work to push it out of mind entirely, until a moment's carelessness flooded his brain with doomed, fatal longing. Here, suddenly, thinking of sitting on the window seat with Lily, laughing over marking, is right in the same category as sitting in front of the fire with the other Ms; all just as vital, precious, immutable, but solid. Complete. No need for yearning of any 'missing' aspect.
…because… instead… here… dancing across the table from him in a pair of sparkling eyes…
"It sounds really nice," said Remus, stupidly but earnestly. Wondering for the first time if getting into Gryffindor wasn't the only way his life could have been saved that day. "…You ever read muggle books, as well as liking their music? I've heard the Hufflepuff commonroom compared to something in… some of it."